Your parents. In the whole world you can never be, even remotely, try to be ahead of them, better than them or even to close to them. Yet, parents listen to all your big and small needs and stay modest all through this journey ~ Admire. Learn.
Why do we have this 'E' when one day things will fall down, nothing is going to stay forever and life will eventually move out and write you out.
This is the source from which self-disgust, self-hatred, and self-sabotage springs—and the ego loves it, this self-imposed separation.